If I could…

If I could

If I could go back…

Looking back to the girl I was in high school in 1999…the girl who was over 200 pounds, the girl who was oinked at in the halls, the girl who would then retreat to food for comfort…IF I COULD GO BACK I would tell her that in 16 years she would be at her goal weight, she will coach hundreds of people to reach their goal weight as well. I will also say that despite the teasing that she will never forget, she will be stronger for it, she will be more kind to others because of it and it will form who she is in 2015.

If I could…

…go back to the girl who was engaged and was heartbroken when she and her fiancé decided to break things off I would still be fearful of being alone but I would say, “do not worry. Find peace in knowing God has a plan for you to meet the man who will love you and cherish you shortly. He will sweep you off your feet and hold you when you’re weak. You will have a beautiful son together and form a life you’ve dreamed of having.”

If I could…

…go back to that day in February 2009 when the doctor called and said “you have Multiple Sclerosis” while I would still melt to the floor in a puddle of fear, I would tell myself, “it’s going to be okay. God has a plan and a purpose for you despite this. You will rise above and find incredible strength from this and go on to inspire people to make a change in their health. You will raise thousands of dollars for the cause and you will shine bright despite the darkness.”

If I could…

What will I say to myself in 5 years about my anxieties of today? While I will still be a bit anxious, I hope I look back and say, “while you were nervous to make the wrong decisions you trusted in Me and I made your paths straight.”

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